Well it hasn't exactly been an enjoyable start to the Chinese New Year for me. I felt these sudden pangs of yearning for home when calling my family and having to study for a Spanish test over the weekend was a real bummer too. Got that out of the way yesterday and I think I did alright, considering just weeks ago I realised I didn't know how to say 'hello' in Spanish!
I was feeling rather depressed for the whole of last week, culminating to an absolute low during the last weekend. I think it was the hectic pace of this rotation and the pain in the neck of a Spanish test at the back of my mind that nearly drove me mad. It seemed I could never focus all my attention on medicine, because I was getting constantly distracted by the spectre of this test.
The depression got so bad, I actually felt intense anger within when anyone spoke, even friends, for no apparent reason. I never externalised this anger, because I knew it was senseless, but nevertheless this anger always seemed to well up within. Then strangely enough, I woke feeling absolutely euphoric on Tuesday. Perhaps the prospect of the test on Wednesday and the idea of getting it over and done with excited me.
Utter depression followed by euphoria. Bipolar disorder? Haha, or medical student syndrome? Whatever it is, I'm just glad I'm feeling better now. There are still 10 days left to enjoy the festive New Year mood!
Chinese New Year celebrations in London